I try to be the kind of person who looks on the bright side of difficult situations. The current difficult situation in my life being unemployment, and the bright side of unemployment being having tons of free time! With all of this free time (almost 3 months now), you think I would have written several chapters in my novel, or at least kept up with my beloved blogging buddies! But lately, I have found that my writing, along with my entire life (with the exception of my score in ‘Bejeweled’) has come to a sort of…
After facing more rejection in a few short months, than every school dance I attended in junior high, I’ve been in this downward slump:
Here’s what I know: The Universe is on my side. Ask and I shall receive. Life always says YES. But why is the only response I’m hearing, NO?
Seriously, Universe, what’s your deal?
One thing I have been moving forward with with my excess of free time, has been my yoga practice. At the end of each class, in the quiet moments of shavasana, I’ve been able to reflect on this conundrum and try to find light in the dark abyss that is my current employment state. I’ve asked myself, is there something inside of me that is resistant to getting a job in the field I’ve been applying? The Universe says YES.
Sometimes rejection is a necessary part of reaching your goal, and sometimes it’s worth persevering until you’ve achieved it. I will be facing much more rejection when it comes time to publish my novel, and no amount of it will convince me it’s not worth pursuing. Other times though, rejection can be an indication that maybe it’s time to reevaluate your goal. Maybe no doors are opening for you on this path, because this path is not for you.
So what has brought me to this path I’m on? I can tell you for sure that it’s not passion. I haven’t been pursuing my dream career doing something I love. I’ve been pursuing a job that I know I could do, that I know will pay the bills. Practical? Yes. Passionate? Not so much.
With every NO the Universe has placed before me in the last few months, this truth has become more and more apparent. My own inner voice, acting through the Universe, has made itself heard after months of whispering on deaf ears. “Why do this, when you could do something you love? Something you’re passionate about? Something that’s not just okay, but is %^$#&* great!?”
Do I know what that is? Not exactly, but I have an idea. So I’m going to follow that idea and see where it leads me. Chances are, there will be set-backs on that path, too. But I think with an end-goal in mind that I feel passionately about, I will see that those “set-backs” are actually stepping stones, bringing me one step closer to doing what I love.
“There is nothing that is denied to you and when you do not see the outcome you desire in your life it is not because you have not been heard by Source, have not moved energy, or are not worthy, it is because your spiritual ‘yes’ and your material ‘yes’ are out of alignment.” Jennifer Hoffman, http://enlighteninglife.com
“You’ve got to follow your passion. You’ve got to figure out what it is you love–who you really are. And have the courage to do that. I believe that the only courage anybody ever needs is the courage to follow your own dreams.” Oprah Winfrey
“And in me wake hope, fear, boundless desire.”