After last week’s post, What I’m Driving, What’s Driving Me, I received a message from a good friend of mine. (If you haven’t read it, I told a story about how in a serendipitous turn of events, the Universe provided for me, at a time when I really needed it). My main message was that ‘the Universe always provides”. My friend wondered how someone living in poverty would take such a message. She imagined they would be deeply insulted by such a statement because it wouldn’t at all reflect their experience with money. She said: “I feel like if I told them that the Universe always provides, they would spit in my face and ask me where that support was.” I am thankful to have people in my life who are willing to challenge me, and who actually read my blog (hoorah!). Her powerful words stuck with me and got me weighing some serious questions.
If the Universe always provides, how is there such dissonance between people? How is it that I am sitting here blogging about feeling prosperous, while others are on the street feeling helplessly broke? Have my experiences with money shaped my beliefs or have my beliefs shaped my experiences with money?
“The first time I heard the concept, “the abundance of the Universe is available to everyone,” I thought it was ridiculous. “Look at all the poor people,” I said to myself. “Look at my own seemingly hopeless poverty.” To hear, “Your poverty is only a belief in your consciousness” only made me angry. It took me many years to realize and accept that I was the only person responsible for my lack of prosperity. It was my belief that I was “unworthy,” and “not deserving,” that “money is difficult to come by,” and that “I do not have talents and abilities,” that kept me stuck in a mental system of “not having.”
When people respond in bitterness and anger at the news of someone else’s success, they send the message out to the Universe that such success is not what they want. Prosperity (health, wealth, happiness) is not limited and it is not exclusive. It is an infinite source that is available to all who are open to it. To me, it’s more of a way of thinking than it is a tangible label.
By all quantitative measures, I am not wealthy. I get by from pay cheque to pay cheque, am living mostly off of student loans, and am more in debt than I am in the clear. My wardrobe is getting incredibly ratty, and I haven’t splurged on a haircut in almost a year. Like anyone else, crap happens: my computer needs repair, my appliances stop working and my car breaks down. As I’m writing this, it is clear to me that I don’t identify with this story of lack at all. It feels completely foreign to me, actually. Despite all of these “facts” about my life, I feel absolutely prosperous. I am healthy, I am fulfilled, and the Universe always provides for me.
I am sure that some people read ‘t & t’ and see it as naive, or idealistic. I have no doubt that many people come across my blog and quickly dismiss it because they don’t relate to the content. Heck, I’m used to the quick dismissal. I rarely find people who relate to me in real life! Perhaps my friend is right, and I have even written something that might offend others of a different mindset. To these people I must say, I am sorry that your experiences have led you to believe anything other than ‘ the universe always provides’, and I wish you love and joy in all of your endeavors. I’m sorry, but I’m not sorry at all.
I could very easily obsess about my exponential debt and this blog would be a whole different creature, but what good would that do me or my readers? Where your mind goes, your energy flows, and I choose to focus on all of the areas in life that I am wealthy, and that is saying a lot. In terms of things that I am grateful for, I am very, very wealthy, and there’s no shame in that.